About 8 months ago I watched a documentary that changed my life. Blood, Sweat, and Sequins is a documentary about pole dancers in Australia competing for the title of Miss Pole Dance. I decided to watch it through a fit of insomnia and thought it would be a fun way to pass the time. Instead, the film sparked my interest in pole dancing and even motivated me to try my first class. 8 months later here I am with the idea to do this project.
2015 and 2016 were tough and intense years. Lots of stuff going both in my personal life, politics, etc. 2017 started off with a bang and I could easily see myself falling down a rabbit hole. My default mode is highly anxious with a few sprinkles of depression. I needed an outlet to focus my energy and some goals to keep my brain occupied as well as some positive goals. Don’t get me wrong I still plant to read the New York Times and stayed engaged with the world but needed something to help me stay sane.
I decided for the next four years I am going to document my pole dance journey and capture my progression and the lessons learned along the way. Ideally, I would love to someday compete or at least get some performances under my belt.
So, what’s with the name? Well, my maiden name is Ptacek which is Slovak for Little Bird. I mean if I was really being honest with myself I would title it the “Big Bird Project.” I am 5’10 and look like a giant in pole shoes….so “Little” is not what I woul use to describe myself. But I don’t want to get sued by Sesame Street so here we are.
Okay, so you may be wondering why Pole Dance? I am not going to lie if you asked a year ago what I thought of pole dancing I probably would have said something offensive. I have been a runner for the last 20 years and I have had a bit of an ego about my running fitness. I have had some good races and done pretty well. I have considered myself an athlete but after getting into pole dancing I have changed my tune.
Pole dancing is hard like really freaking hard. It requires strength, patience, mental agility, etc. Also, it is beautiful to watch. I am so captivating by the tricks and movements. So I gave it a try and was humbled. I decided to invest in this new sport and started attending classes regularly. I am excited to share my journey and see where it takes me!